What am I doing?

My girlfriend will kick the shit out of you.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

We are Chinese Peopre

Writing a novel takes time.

Okay, I'll elaborate.

I have a car, a job, a girlfriend. I play guitar, eat sushi, and read literature. I'm like your typical suburban university kid.

Except I'm not really.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Strive

So yeah, check my twitter if you haven't yet. Here.

Anyways, what's new with me? I've been really in deep with the philosophical debate lately - I may need to rejoin some old facebook groups devoted to arguing over silly things like the nature of free will, the randomness of Brownian motion, and the deep mechanics of 'airplane on treadmill'. I need a tweed coat, slippers and a pipe. My girlfriend would enjoy that.

I've been busy with school a lot, but I don't really feel like talking about trivial things like that. It's introspection time here at dramabiotics corner, and I've got a giant mental mirror propped up in front of me.

Okay, so, lately, things have really been changing around. I have a girlfriend - that's been going on for a while now - but I'm really not too sure what's going on. I'm at a happy point in my life, but, as I've always thought, conflict is drive, and a lack of conflict leads to complacency. In all honesty, I miss the years of depression and arguing with myself. It was an interesting time, if stressful.

In general, I think that I have many ideas, but I'm just afraid or unsure of how to implement them. Nik suggested that I run for public office - and in all honesty, I wouldn't be too adverse to the idea of running for some sort of basic political position, like in a ward or something. I just think that I'm biting off more than I can chew - but I've learned that it's better to take on more than not do anything at all.

There are many types of people. Some are needed to keep the machine running - the framework upon which we build our lives. Farmers, factory workers, industrialists, doctors. On the other hand, you have the researchers who spend their time improving that machine - engineers, scientists, medical researchers. Some people are a blend of both. I've always felt I'm in the latter - I don't ever see myself holding a 'milling' job, where I pump out services or products day after day. I need to do something different, to have projects and noticeable improvements, like designing train systems, building up cities, inventing new technology.

Maybe I'll never get there, but I need to try. There are so many issues I take interest in, and so many fields in which I want to throw my opinion to. I just need to find that starting point.